So... as per my usual modus operandi, I have set some goals and set some goals, and well, set some more goals. Life always has a way of moving on with little changing as far as my habits are concerned. I have, however, been discovering some things about myself and I think these discoveries are going to help me make the changes I've been wanting to for a very long time.
First, I am an all or nothing person. I either have to do it all or nothing gets done. I've made lists and schedules and plans in my head about so many things that I want to do, things that I even need to do and yet too little gets done during the day. My biggest issue (as it seems to always have been the case) is the TV. I watch WAY TOO MUCH and can't seem to walk away after only an hour. It seems the running theme through my mind is "just one more episode, and then I'll do..." It really needs to stop! I have been working on it... this past Monday was a really good day for me. I stayed away from the TV and actually got some stuff done on the house. It felt great to be productive, even if my back was KILLING me.
Second, after what seems like a lifetime (well, for Ender it has been), I am finally pregnant again!!! And during our move in December (which is when I found out), we got rid of nearly all of our baby stuff because we were moving from a full house to an apartment. Plus we thought with how long it had been, it just wasn't going to happen. Additionally, a lot of our stuff was stored outside or in a semi-dry basement, in which we had mice... so, we tossed a lot of our baby stuff and a friend was pregnant with a boy so we gave her a lot of our infant clothing... and then I found out that we're expecting...
Now I've got a bit of a weight on me, feeling the need to get stuff going - I think I'm definitely starting to nest! lol I'm due September 4th and it seems that day is approaching very quickly and I don't feel any kind of ready!
Third, in addition to being an all or nothing person, I also have a slightly addictive personality. I latch onto things, ideas, people, TV shows, etc. I become obsessed with those things and they become the center of my universe. My obsessions lately have been the state of Alaska (including TV shows, researching homes for sale, jobs, the things necessary for living there, etc.), cloth diapering, homemade beauty/cleaning products, mason jars, with an occasional meander through Ravelry for a crochet pattern. So, needless to say, these things too often take precedent over the things that I should be doing. So, I've been trying to temper my addictions, wean myself as it were from the things that are clouding my judgement and taking time away from my family.
Finally, I have discovered that if I don't get the dishes done, first thing in the morning, VERY little gets done during the day. I HAVE TO get up before ScottE leaves for work at 6:35ish and make breakfast, his lunch and send him on his way, then do the dishes - preferably all before Ender wakes up. The last bit doesn't always happen and the past 2 days, none of this has happened, but I know that tomorrow will be a better day!
